Sunday, 3 May 2015

God, I'm so depressed.

God, I'm so depressed. 

Skint, depressed 
Lonely, depressed 
Fat, depressed 
Skinny, depressed
It's all over the place, especially now in social media. I can't find a pair of jeans to fit me, I want to go out at the weekend, I split up with my boyfriend/girlfriend type stuff will get you 26 likes and 12 'don't worry about it' comments.
Try typing in,
I have depression, I am depressed as your next status update and listen to the tumbleweed blow across your page.

So here's the blog, from the brain of a west of Scotland, fifty odd year old guy, living with depression. 
It's nothing new, it's not unusual, it's a fucker to live with and even more of a fucker to explain. So I won't. 

A close friend who had lived with undiagnosed depression for many, many years went to see his G.P. I met him in the pub a while later. 
Turns out that the quack had prescribed 'those tablets that film stars take?' 
'Prozac?' 
'Aye, ah wish I had got them years ago, ah might have ended up a film star!
...too late now eh?' 

Keep taking the tablets. 

It's a way of life. You get the tablets because your low, you feel great after six months and stop the tablets. You trundle along until the next crisis hits, decide it's time to jump off the nearest multi storey or head back to the doc.


AmitriptylineTryptizolTricyclic
ClomipramineAnafranilTricyclic
CitalopramCipramilSSRI
DosulepinProthiadenTricyclic
DoxepinSinequanTricyclic
DuloxetineCymbalta, YentreveSNRI
FluoxetineProzacSSRI
ImipramineTofranilTricyclic
LofepramineGamanilTricyclic
MirtazapineZispinNaSSA
MoclobemideManerixMAOI
NortriptylineAllegronTricyclic
ParoxetineSeroxatSSRI
PhenelzineNardilMAOI
ReboxetineEdronaxSNRI
SertralineLustralSSRI
TranylcypromineParnateMAOI
TrazodoneMolipaxinTricyclic-related
VenlafaxineEfexorSNRI

Yes, I've had them all, (well most) dependant on the whim or fancy of the doctor, or in some cases, what I fancy at the time! (some G.Ps are lazy and can't be bothered, it's easier to just ask you what you think you need)